From an earlier post, I don’t do immediate reactions. That never what this blog has been about I like to let an episode “marinate”, as well as take into the before and after context. Plus, doing an immediate post opens you up for emotion-filled, reactionary judgement by others. I fear judgement. Yet, this episode was too Densi-charged to wait. ECO told me (that still doesn’t seem real) to write what I want; I have that right. So here I go; please be kind!
Most of you know I prefer rambling and descriptive narrative; I’ll leave that for the future traditional episode analysis. It’s now after 11:30pm Eastern and I’ve yet to have dinner - & must be at work at 8am. Yeh, it’s going to be a Mt. Dew morning for this ‘shipper! So here are the bullet points.
As usual, I’ll let this marinate so we can hash out the details and dig deeper into the characters, script, and actors’ portrayal through our group discussion in the Comments section below. (Feel free to join us, if you haven’t already!)
- Kensi admitting she really wants to be with him – the thing she “…wants most in the world, so bad, that you’ll do anything to get it. And your heart takes over.” (DR at her best. We knew she had it in her; we just hadn’t had the opportunity to see or hear her express her overwhelming emotions.)
- Finally, an actual conversation? Kensi follows Deeks down the road of them being them. “Just a boy and a girl…”
- Deeks clearly seeing how scared Kensi is. He doesn’t push; he shows her a way that makes it ok for them to try a relationship.
- Kensi following his lead and making an effort, “My name is Fern. Hi.”
- THEY REFER TO EACH OTHER AS BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND!!! “I have a boyfriend.” “So does my girlfriend.” (This was pretty much my favorite part. I could just watch ECO/Deeks say that line over & over & over…. That smile he gets. It’s the split second of childlike joy we’ve longed for our shaggy detective.)
- Kensi running in after Deeks and breaking protocol for the Op.
- Deeks taking that shot! (Way to getting your head back on straight!) But more significantly, he took the shot with his LEFT hand!
- Kensi giving Deeks her knife, but more importantly that it was her dad’s (and serves as physical representation of her heart). (This had a personal connection for me and simply, literally stunned me at its depth of meaning.)
- Kensi confessing they can make it work and asking for his patience. (Hello, the man’s already been waiting for years….). That she is going to try to talk about them. (For her this is a HUGE step! I think we all truly long to hear more from her.)
- The return of their “Thing” and Kensi verbally reaching out to Deeks.
- I know what some of you want here, but keep reading.
- Kensi torn over how much she want to be with Deeks, but that it will inevitably destroy her. (The longing from above “Best” immediately countered with this overt fear… her warring, confused emotions were brilliant.)
- Deeks again blaming himself and sacrificing himself in harm’s way. (Being a martyr can be dangerous - to yourself.)
- Deeks using “Max”. No. That’s just wrong, too many negative connotations. (Wish it’s been Jason Wyler instead.)
- Hetty taking yet another thing away from Deeks. The motorcycle, the treadmill, and now Kensi. Yet, we still need to trust that Hetty knows best…?
SadHeartbroken Deeks. Again.
- Kensi slugs Deeks. Wow, I don’t think I’ve seen the fandom so up in arms about something since “Drive” (4x11), which now seems so insignificant in comparison. Negative: Some argue they are headed toward an abusive relationship. Kensi can’t control her emotions or express them in a mature way. Deeks is already damaged by the torture (to his mouth, as a reminder!) and his abusive upbringing. Her hitting him would likely resurface those negative memories. Understandable: On the flip side, this is Kensi, who has eternally struggled with admitting to and dealing with her own emotions. She simply doesn’t have a coping mechanism or took the time to fully consider the situation and consequences. She did what she was trained to do: strike out physically. All of this stems from the fact she’s scared. In her mind, being with Deeks will most likely eventually result in her losing another partner, another man, another love. In either case, rightly or wrongly, Deeks will quickly forgive her.
- The night before. On a personal note, I made it quite clear this was a major issue for me. In the end, while it still matters, the writer almost completely removed it from the equation.
- The thought of Deeks opening The Box with The Knife.
- Each dealing with the other’s absence. Will they be able to have any communication? (A little help here Neric?!)
- The “big complication” when they reunite. Sigh.
So what do you think?
DensiLand Pre-Reactions – “The Frozen Lake” (5x10)
Author’s Notes: First, I rarely post episode reactions, and never before how I posted a pre-reaction. I prefer to let a storyline “marinate”, to consider the context of what happens before and after before making judgments (thus the focus of my “analysis-based” blog). Second, speaking of judgments, I fear them. However, during my conversation with Eric Christian Olsen (yeh, I bring that up, didn’t I?), he emphatically stated to write what I want, that I have that right. (Plus, I think they honestly want to know what the fandom truly thinks. Brave souls.) Like Kensi, I’m a bit overwhelmed with emotions and this week, I choose this as the format and venue to try to make sense of it. So with ECO’s words still ringing in my head, I’m courageously typing away. Speculation is dangerous. (Please be kind.)
Know I’m horrible at predicting plot. I had no belief (nor at that time did I want) “the kiss” in “Descent” (4x24). I always take the pessimistic “plan for the worst, try to hope for the best” attitude. For tonight’s “The Frozen Lake” (5x10), I sincerely hope I’m again wrong.